Why are you afraid?

Why are you afraid to allow change?

Why are you afraid to be the change?

Why are you afraid to let go?

Is that your case? 😊

Well, as humans, we are always afraid.

We do not like stepping out of our comfort zones.

We do not mind doing the same thing on and on, day in and day out, but we do get baffled with the slightest changes in our lifestyles. We are always scared to ‘let go’’.

We are always so hung up on our existing routines, that a small change grips our hearts with panic, fear and anxieties.

But the truth is, until we step out , we will never learn. We will never know how it is outside our cocoons.

I learnt it all through my personal experiences.

I remember few years back, I was very comfortable with my life. We were in Port Blair( Andamans and Nicobar Island). An extremely beautiful place, surrounded by water all around. I was very happy to be in a place like that. You can either fly to the mainland or sail. There was no road connectivity. I was soaking myself in nature’s beauty. I always felt those days were the best days of my life. But I was wrong!

A time came, when we had to move out from there. I had to settle in Chennai for a while. I really didn’t like it. It was more of a trauma for me to be alone in an unknown city with a completely different dialect. I really had no clue why I was there in the first place. There was no purpose of life. No one to talk to. I was really annoyed with God. Though I was very comfortable in a posh flat in the best locality of the city, but very lonely. Never prayed or been in fellowship with my Heavenly dad for a few days. God must have ‘laughed”’.

It was there, I realized (later), that the potential seed (Word of God) that I was carrying, needed to be told, and many people were to be brought to the saving knowledge of Christ. Had I been in a place (Andamans) which is completely separated from mainland, that ‘’seed’’( word of God), couldn’t have been sown, watered and matured in due time. I wouldn’t have known my “”Call’”, the purpose I was saved in the very first place. I realized, thatthe gift of Salvation is not only for transforming me and making my life blessed, but also to share with those God has chosen as His ‘’special race’’, and I was just a vessel, the laborer, who was Lord’s hand and feet to reach those souls, awaiting in Chennai.

I stayed in Chennai for two months, but those two months were the beginning of my journey as an ‘’Evangelist’’ (Many people got saved and Gospel was preached) and also beginning of a true “”journey of a worshipper””, who had to learn the greatest lesson …..of trusting in her Lord “”each day at a time”” Till so far, I hadn’t known to enjoy my ‘moments’ . I was either much burdened for my past actions, or too worried for my future. This was the period, I matured in His Love, understood the way He works, and also learnt that “”His ways are not my ways””(Isaiah 55:8-9)but surely are much better than my ways, and beyond my comprehension too, and in due time, I will see and know the reasons and Purpose behind His ways “”.

“”Do not fear, for I am with you,

Do not be dismayed, for I am your God,

I will strengthen you and help you,

I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.(Isaiah 41:10)

Such amazing assurance! 😊

Can fear stand in front of our God?

That period of my life, had I been dismayed, or feared stepping out of my comfort zone, I wouldn’t have known the potentialseed I carry within me as a child of God”’. I was uncomfortable for a while, yes, but its better to be uncomfortable than to live a boring aimless life forever. Its like dying without trying !! I had to give God the chance to bring the change in my life to make it interesting, to give Him also the chance to prove Himself to me and show me how great God is !! Else I would have carried on for the rest of my life doing what I was doing daily, and eventually the purpose I was created for, would have lost its meaning.

Though the duration I stayed in Port Blair, had a significant role to play too in my life. As I look back now, I understand, it was the time God was preparing me for greater things and more responsibilities that I had to undertake. It was a time for me to recuperate, refresh myself in the lap of nature, a time of resting, learning enjoying and knowing mundane routines too, so that when I wouldn’t have anymore ‘time’in coming days because of my busy schedules, I will learn to respect the ‘’me’’ time (when I get it 😊) , I will remember that beautiful phase of my life, when my priorities were just home and my family ( because later on God is going to increase my responsibility and give me a huge extended family in body of Christ and I have to be mature enough to handle all kinds of people with different mindsets and personas ). As Luke 16 :10 says, “whoever can be trusted with little, can be trusted with more””. This was the time God was testing me if I would be faithful with little !! And as I see now, God must have found me faithful over little, hence looked down on me with favor and Grace😊

Every step of life we are offered little pearls of wisdom and learning. Choice is always with us, to learn.

God never forces. He simply leads and guides. We have to be spiritually always tuned to Him, to learn and trust Him with each day.

Now I have learnt to guard my heart, choose to remain positive and always and always trust in HIM.

He is a loving dad. How can He not bless His children who focus on only HIM?

“”I will make rivers flow on barren heights,

And springs within the valleys.

I will turn desert into pools of water,

And parched ground into springs. ( Isaiah 41 :18)

Such is His mercies. Such a Gracious God we serve!

Focus on Him, fears will disappear and blessings will follow …….

Blessings!

(“”The writer has been a Cover page Model for various fashion magazines , anchored various musical shows for youth Channels and a (short film) filmmaker for Discovery Channel. Currently busy writing her own book””)